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(I samuel 16:7) Your word says that
you do not look upon appearance or height. My outward beauty does not matter.
If my heart is not clean you will reject me. You do not see what man see’s. Man
looks on outward appearance, but you look into the heart. Purify my heart lord
so that I will be accepted by you.
Psalm 139:13-14 tells me that you
knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I shall give you praise for I am fearfully
and wonderfully made. Wonderful are the works of...
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
Monday, May 13, 2013
But if serving the Lord seems undesirable to you, then
choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your
ancestors served beyond the Euphrates, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose
land you are living. But as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord Joshua
24:15
To My beloved Son Nicholas Adrian Stevens:
I have always been afraid of the bible. I could never
really get into it and I didn’t understand the way in which it was written. One
day while praying and fasting I ask God to give me wisdom and understanding...
For mothers day my son couldn't give me a card, or tell me "Mom thanks for changing my diaper at one in the morning and waking up three times a night for feedings and kisses."
Well I decided to write my baby a letter to give to him when he gets older. I even framed it. I want to hang it some where in his room.
I wanted to write so much more but I wrote this letter with the intent of hanging it up. Of course I used a preitter font and...
Saturday, April 27, 2013
Postpartum depression has consumed too much of my life. It nearly prevented me from bonding with my son. Some of my relationships with close friends have been strained. Today I have decided to take my life back. For one I’m going to make amends with the people who I have lost touch with.
I’m also in the process of making a schedule that consist of a longer nighttime routine so me and my son can have some serious one on one time.
To do list
Write...
Friday, April 26, 2013
I was just beginning to think my Post Partum Depression was
going away, and then I bumped into a really rough couple of weeks. Things
between Nick and I got really bad to the point that if was affecting each other’s
families.
My mom pulled me to the side and told me I was really really
getting on her nerves with the emotional outbursts. At first I was really
offended and thought her comments were insensitive and unnecessary. But maybe
my crying in the middle of the night is keeping every one up. And maybe my
moping around the house is starting...
Saturday, April 20, 2013
Friday, March 8, 2013
As a new mom I had these negative feelings all the time. When I spoke with other moms I realized I wasn't alone.
1. I do the majority of the work.
I couldn't help but feel this way all the time. At night the baby would wake up crying several times a night. Sometimes it was every two hours. Nick Sr. would sleep right through it all or pretend to be asleep. A couple of nights Nick got so frustrated he slept on the...
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
I know many of you read this thinking she took entirely too much from Nick Sr. But I was bright enough to know brighter days were ahead of us. I read that a lot of couple’s divorce within the first year of marriage or the first year after having a baby. The first year is always the hardest.
I was understanding enough to know Nick Sr wasn’t raised to respect women. He didn’t know a thing about kids because his mom took care of his first child. And out of respect for him and his family I won’t elaborate anymore.
I was understanding but not stupid....
Monday, March 4, 2013
Nick had no idea I was at the hospital. Nick couldn't handle watching the baby so he left the baby with his mom. She even started sending me mean text messages.
“If Nick keeps the baby Friday, you need to get him Saturday. You need to take responsibility of your child. I’m going to have a talk with you.”
She made me feel worse then I already felt. I cried to hard the nurse came in my room to check up on me. I showed her the text message and she gave me lots of sympathy and then told me to cut off my phone.
A doctor came in and told...
God truly dislikes when people slander others as if they’re perfect, so I am not writing this to tarnish anyone’s name. I write this only to share my story of hope. If I can help at least one person, then I have accomplished my goal.
Healing comes through the sharing of testimony. If you saw me then, and you see me now, you know God has brought me through. He has kept and preserved me.
If someone reads this and wants to gossip about me,...
Recently Nick acquired an ear infection that required antibiotics. Consequently he suffered a yeast diaper rash.
This rash seemed to come out of nowhere. I increased the amount of desitin I used on him. I went from using it nightly to using Desitin with every diaper change. His rash continued to get worse. I decided I was going to fight this naturally. I started changing the baby every hour. That actually exasperated the problem. His...
Sunday, March 3, 2013
The truth is I have way too much time on my hands. Facebook is dying and I
tried three times to use twitter but I guess I was just too boring to get any
followers. So twitter was a bore to me. I just don’t understand how a
site about tweets could be so popular. I digress…
Being unemployed gives me a lot of time to think. My baby has to
go to daycare everyday even though I’m unemployed or we will lose our voucher.
So I’m alone a lot. When you’re unemployed you don’t have lot of options
as to how you are going to spend your day.
I...
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